Becoming… What It Actually Feels Like

Tagline: “I’m not there yet… but I’m not who I was.” 

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BY SIMONE SNEAD

I think we need to talk about what “becoming” actually feels like.

Because I’m not going to lie—

this is not what I thought it would be.

I thought becoming would feel like…

clarity.

confidence.

everything coming together at the right time.

Like I would wake up one day and just feel like—

oh. this is it. I’m her now.

And…

that has not been my experience! AT ALL.

Becoming, for me, has looked like:

being sure… and unsure at the same time

moving forward… while still figuring things out growing…

but still having moments where I’m like “wait”

It’s a very in-between place.

Like you’re not who you used to be anymore…

but you’re also not fully who you’re becoming yet.

And that space?

Is uncomfortable!

Because there’s no script.

There’s no clear “you’ve arrived” moment.

It’s just you…

learning yourself in real time.

Some days I feel aligned.

Like I’m making the right decisions, moving how I should, growing into the woman I’ve been praying to be.

And other days?

I’m like…

am I doing this right? LOL

And I think that’s the part nobody really talks about.

Becoming isn’t linear.

It’s not clean.

Sometimes it looks like:

changing your mind

setting a boundary you’re not used to

outgrowing things quietly

realizing you don’t like what you used to tolerate

And sometimes it looks like…

still having moments that feel very “old you”.

Like you’ve grown…

but you’re also like,

okay God, clearly we still have work to do here LOL

And I’ve had to make peace with that.

Because I used to think becoming meant I had to get everything right.

That I had to be consistent all the time.

That I had to look like growth in every moment.

But now?

I’m realizing becoming is a lot more honest than that.

It’s showing up as you are…and allowing God to work with that.

Not the perfect version.

Not the polished version.

Just you.

And trusting that over time…He’s shaping you into who you’re meant to be.

And I think that’s why I’ve started to love this season.

Because even when I feel unsure…even when I don’t feel like I have everything together…I know I’m not the same.

And that’s enough for me.

Because I’m not trying to arrive anymore.

I’m just…becoming.

Okay bye